Dream or nightmare?

Last night I dream beauty.
I dream that my life was off pain and
That I didn't need to run away, anymore.

Last night I dream in colors, last night...
Last night I dream about you.

I dream you were alive
And woke up forgetting that you are not
There.

Reality sucks very bad.
And in this world full of selfishness,
Tears are trade it like candies in halloween.

Reality.

Sometimes I just gotta cry my heart out,
Let the darkness consume me and my deeper thoughts.
Consolation is not longer enough because the pain is always there.

But unfurtunatly he is NOT.

Seeing you again,
Was like finding myself.
&
Sometimes I feel like I was born to suffer,
Sometimes I see myself as a mistake.
I am a mistake.
But you can't really fix mistakes, instead you work with them.
Therefore I be the best mistake ever made.

Sometimes I feel like crying my heart out.
Letting my pain fly and darkness overcome my thoughts.

These minutes I take to let my thoughts be written by my fingers
Are the most precious moments of my life. Because I dont have to hide,
Because I can be the person that I feel like being. These precious minutes I value,
Trying to escape, to later on come back and realize that he is not there, nothing else is there
but my problems.