Analizing Death and it's subreactions into my everyday

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As a perfectionist and
extremist everyone would expect
me to demand for complications.
I like things rather
simple. At moments of rush
there is nothing else but
Black and White.

For the past year and 5 months
death have been BLACK. My worst
enemy, my push over for revenge,
my fear.

I can recall dates, moments,
memories of the times I have been
through death.Whether have been emotionally
or phisically, I have been there.
Death is linked to an unauthorized loss
And that's the hardest part of all.
Letting Go. Even when you die inside,
how do you let go of those dead feelings?

RE-BIRTH.

The door, the world
that death have
open for me. Never saw how on
earth I could get some benefits.
From dying, from crashing,
from falling, from loosing.
Yet I'm here as a survivor
because Death have shown me
Strength and most than all;
it have shown me peace.

And no, you don't need to
go through this to find yourself.
Either appreciate your today -and everyone/everything in it-
or deal with what you gotta deal.
Yes, Death have it's dark side
but once you hit that point,
where else is there to look?

We make the choise to move on,
or to stay in the darkness, under the
heavy rain.

This has to deal a lot with self-motivation;
where you want to go or what you want to achieve.
When something ends, when your story reaches its goal,
when a world finalizes; it's moment for you to
re-born, come from ashes and begin a new chapter, a new you.
or when your story does not even touch its goal. Don't let that discourage you.
Because death is a ritual to success. We must die in order to live.
Both mentally and spiritually.

I have chosen darkness all the way.
From my dad's death to loosing a friendship.
But that is no longer my case. I know
what to expect out of darkness. I don't
enjoy it, I don't get anything out of it;
Just voluntary pain.

As long as I continue to fight,
to re-born when necessary, to open up
to the light that comes out of all endings.

I will be happy.
I will be successful.
I will be in peace with myself.
I will have the wisdom to see things
from both its dark and bright side and be
able to absorb what is ONLY beneficial
for my soul.
Have a happy life.