Vidas Extraviadas

Tu que sonríes en cada fotografía con ella,
Tu que en tus pensamientos te lastimas a latigazos por aquel abandono,
Tu que de momentos me amas, pero que en otros momentos me odias,
Tu que sonríes en cada fotografía con ella.

Te preguntas si talvez el destino nos pondrá de frente una vez mas,
y porque te mientes? si sabes bien que el encontrarnos no fue solo un hechizo, o un capricho del destino, mas bien un desnudo completo a nuestras almas vulnerables. Un espejo donde solo se reflejaban figuras de apariencia peculiar pero muy similar desde los mas simple detalles, hasta los mas oscuro secretos.


Porque te mientes? de verdad piensas que otro encuentro no causaría el mismo efecto o uno peor? Esto es como iniciar un volcán si esperar erupción.

Tu que de dia vives feliz, pero al atardecer te inundes en los mas temibles abismos, en mis mas terribles pesadillas. En mi mar de poemas, en las sinfonías que le cantas a través de tus pensamientos, a aquel pequeño musculo que marcaste tuyo hace años. Deja de esconderte que dos almas tan semejantes, en diferentes extremos no son peligrosas solo amigosas. 

Talvez te espante con mis preguntas, con mis dudas, con mis cicatrices profundas pero no lo olvides, solo hay un Rey en este pedazo de musculo que cargo en el pecho.

Y aun no se si sera este tu deseable trofeo, tu peor pesadilla o tu mayor triunfo, pero....

El volcán, en nuestra próxima vía lo determinaran.

Thoughts of a kid.

"You're just a kid! you don't know what you're doing"

I put my head between my hands and allow a tear to run down my cheek.
As she calls my name I open the door and walked out, not knowing where to head.
I just knew I had to get out of that place.

My heart starts racing and I start walking fast.
I was looking for a place where no one would know
who I was. I look straight up and read Baskin robbins "not quite" I tell myself,
I look to my right, I see Musicalia "Bingo!"

The bell on top of the door rang as soon as I walked in,
and a man in a black suit welcome me and say,
"En que puedo ayudarle señorita?" (how may I help you miss?)
"Puedes retroceder el tiempo por mi?" (can you rewind time for me?)
The man look straight at me and then walks away. I smiled.

- just a kid huh-

The store was sort of surprising. I walked around a little bit reading the name
of artists out loud in my head. "Rancheras, Melody, Ricky Martin, Wisin y yandel."
and then I find a little cafeteria, I walked in. Go up to the person working there and while
my mind was deciding what to do with my thoughts, I put 100 pesos en la mesa and ask for a coke.

I just wish she knew, just wish so bad she knew! the sin she had committed;
the violation to my heart, to my thoughts, the who I am.
How could you, damn human? betray my heart!
Destroy part of the kingdom that I!
with my own hands have created.

Where is my Beowulf? oh dearest god I have found the Grendel of earth!
how do you dare, dirty human, to constrain me from something that have done no harm to
anyone.

"It's the truth anyways!, they all fake me love"

I take a zip of my coke, and remember the last conversation I had with my aunt..
she said I was old enough to know that coke would eventually kill me and then she asked me,
"do you want to die?"

I wonder.. I JUST wonder..
what would kill me first?

The lack of ignorance in my surrounds?
The lack of love?
The lack of understanding?
The lack of peace in the world?
The lack of Hope?
Or...
a bottle of coke?

Cheap metaphor

I must be dreaming because everytime I open my eyes I only see your eyes.
I must be poison because everytime I eat, I can taste your kiss on my lips.

There is something I must be doing wrong.
I try to forget you but this love is stronger that my thoughts.
I never expected to find something stronger that who I am.
It's a feeling that overrides my voice.

The sun does not longer have the same effect on me. It must be
because of those bright eyes of yours. I have never seen anything
similar before.

And your touch..
is like having the sky on earth.

I wonder if I would find something greater than this.
I wonder if I would ever, perhaps one day.
Forget your love. Forget your kiss, your touch.
The brightness of your eyes....

I know Im wondering in vain.